From these women I seek closure…

I am like a river, I got no ebb
All I have is my flow,
Some women are like harsh sunlight,
Burning me with that bright glow.

I am like the sand,
Considered land but brittle and fine,
Some women are like a sand timer,
I’m into you and yet confined.

I am like candy
Bringing smiles and sweet
Some women are like diabetes
Condolingly making life bleak

I am like prayer,
A hope, a new found belief,
Some women are like smoking,
An addiction, an illusion of relief.

I am independent,
Each day my goals are closer,
Some women are the leach,
Bleeding away my composure.

From these women I seek closure…

My hearts already been toyed with, yo-yoed side to side…

Not fazed by your physical beauty, I’ve dated my share of models,
Just searching for honesty, trust and someone to love purely, not figurines of coke bottles.

My hearts already been toyed with, yo-yoed side to side,
Say “I love you? only if u mean it, or else it’s plagiarized.
Don’t read if off a bumper sticker and paraphrase it to lure my love,
I won’t contain my wrath this time, later repent forgiveness from HIM above.

I’d love you till time stands-still, I’d love like you’re a fiend,
If you can’t reciprocate my love, then don’t make my love routine.
It’s not you that I hate; these past memories are token,
I wish I could give you a whole heart, but I’ll take the risk with pieces that are broken.

It makes me happy to see you smile,
I haven’t felt this rush now for a while,
I feel the rain drop on my finger tips,
Reminds me of your scent and the taste of your sweet lips.
We’d stay up late for nights have talks,
I’d gently hold you hand through walks,
I’d sing to you by the fire, snuggle you like warm attire,
Hold you close, oh so tight…sweet tender kisses through the night.
With me you’d laugh a lifetime, I’d be your favorite cartoon,
I’d even let you pick the exotic spots together for us to honeymoon.
I’d grace your everyday with flowers,
Together we’d plan baby showers,
When faced with grave danger with you I’d switch places,
For you what’s the world, I’d even smile to death’s faces.
It just how I am, it’s all consequently,
I’m in this for the long haul, and not out the door swiftly,
They loved u momentarily and left you thinking she’s a hooptie,
They’re fools, cuz I’d love u for a lifetime and treat you like a Bentley.

If I’d ever find you, my pearl in the deep ocean blue,
I’d treat you each day like my new found treasure, cuz all I’d see is you.
Each day as time here ebbs, love tries squeezing in my life persistently,
I look love in the eye and say…this girl is a dream…I say it to love gently.

When I see a couple…

When I see a couple…together holding hands,
I wonder within in me how much of each other can they really stand,
It’s magical right now; it’s all a seeming Wonderland,
A couple years down they’ll be sick of each other and hurt like swollen glands.

When I see a couple…walking side by side,
For now their strides are in sync but for how long will be their life?
Right now she hopes for it and he too wants her as his bride,
A couple years down the kids will suffer most; cuz in divorce there’s no compromise.

When I see a couple…delved deep in a kiss,
I wonder if it’s really love, or replacement of a past infatuation they miss.
Bury the past and be set free, evasion gives happiness momentarily,
I am secure in my clarity, cuz I know this thing called love is not for me.

I am proud that at least I am honest enough,
Straight up and never sugar-coat it as love,
Daily I am infatuated with someone new,
Be real with me and today it could be you,
My attraction is short-lived only cause I am curious,
I won’t commit cause I am happily promiscuous.

Friends…

Some stand by thru thick and thins
Others fade away like passing trends
Lonely on lives curves and bends…
So who’s really true, while most pretend!

When the time comes…who’ll lend the crying shoulders?
Who will help you lift life’s heavy boulders?
Those with money make lonesome hearts smolder!
Let the money be gone…then see who’s colder!

So imma patron for solitude…
The fuck I need you? Yea that’s my attitude…
My independence makes you think I’m rude…
Now you love me cuz you think its cute….

So don’t spark me…you might hit the fuse…
Don’t hate me cuz truly ur confused…
So be a friend and prevent this corrode
Or break my trust for eternal remorse…
So now with the rest you will surely blend…
You just lost the best thing…Me…a true friend!!

False Promises!!!

“Diamonds, jewels, the Bling I don’t need”
Alone I’m left, as my heart continues to bleed.

“I’d match your every stride hand in hand”
Alone I’m left, sturdy ground has turned to quick sand.

“We’d grow old together, good or bad for the remainder years”
Alone I’m left, payback is gonna be hard for these endless tears.

“I’d love you till the very last breath”
Alone I’m left, you’ve cheated me and so had death.

“I’d live with you penniless under a bridge”
Alone I’m left, with scars of slit wrists.

“I knew you were the one, even before our first date”
Alone I’m left, there’s no room for love in a heart filled with hate.

“I’ll always make you smile, fill your eyes with love’s glitter”
Alone I’m left, now love’s wonders why I am a quitter.

“Baby! I could never lie to you, how could I break your trust?”
Alone I’m left, trusted you when the world knew you were promiscuous.

“I’ll be by your side, even if the world turn upside down”
Alone I’m left, but remember what goes around comes around.

why we fell apart…

I can’t figure out why we fell apart,
I can’t really tell for me if there’s room in your heart,
It seems like through sands for needles we sift,
I can’t really tell why out of you’re life you’ve just let me drift.

I can’t really tell what wrong actions I’ve done,
Your past being cold, cuz now you’ve grown numb
I can’t really tell what’s made you upset,
You may have let go of me…but you I won’t forget.

If you’re already past me…I bid you good bye,
I will miss our good times and that’s surely no lie,
We may grow apart…on different end of the earth dwell,
If our paths ever crossed, I’d smile within saying “I once new her well”
And now I’m perplexed on the edge of life’s cliff,
If I were to fall off…I want you to know I cherished our friendship.

Sometimes…

Sometimes…

Sometimes when I look at you…
And I am lost for words to say
How much the sight of you just brightens up my day!

Sometimes when you hold me…
I get sweet tingles by your touch
I wonder if you’d ever know how I cherish you so much!

Sometimes when you’re in grey moods…
I love being the one to make you smile
Soon you’re smiling like a fat kid with cup cakes…yes stupid is my style.

Always when I am around you…
My happiness is understated by the expression “eternal bliss”
I wouldn’t trade our friendship for the rush you get from every first kiss.

The masterpiece of two brilliant (and sexy might i add) minds late on a wed. night…;)

*It makes me happy to see you smile,
haven’t felt this for a while.
I feel the rain drops on my fingertips,
reminds me of your scent and the taste of your sweet lips!

~Just one glance makes me weak,
I get lost in your kiss.
Your touch makes me anything but meek,
can’t deny it’s sheer bliss!

*I’d sing to you by the fire,
snuggle you like warm attire,
hold you close oh so tight,
sweet tender kisses through the night!

~Your snuggles would always be my preferred choice of attire,
especially on naked thursdays.
Of your passionate kisses and sweet glances I would never tire,
even on endless days.

*And now I’m frantic,
cause she’s in romantic.
Always the mind games never sincere,
so Imma keep it cool and switch back to the “player.”

~Games are always what you make of them.
The game’s over when you find a gem.
By acknowledging the game you lose automatically.
The best secret is to play discretely.

*She surely toys with my heart.
Yo-yo’s it side to side.
Now can I really trust her?
How much of this is plagarized?
She reads it on a bumper sticker,
paraphrases it to lure love,
my heart’s already been broken,
now she too will have to answer HIM above!

~Of insincerity and heartbreak you accuse me.
That’s unjust and painful I’ll admit.
It burns within and stings like a bee.
Carelessly this tapestry of bitter love is knit!

~If it’s trust you want,
look beyond the words,
remember not to flaunt,
and find beauty in even nerds!

*It’s just how I am it’s all consequently,
They all left like a hooptie,
but I’d treat you like a Bentley!

~Bentley indeed!
Would you take me out often for others to admire,
or keep me caged up and later sell me to the highest buyer?
Perhaps you would no longer sing to me by the fire,
but only drive me with your every fleeting desire!

*I’m not looking for beauty,
I’ve dated my share of models.
Just honesty, trust, and purity of heart,
Not figurines of coke bottles!

~Beauty takes many forms.
Beauty I speak of surpasses all the norms.
It’s the beauty within you’re looking for.
It must grow within YOU first so don’t make it a chore!

While Mumbai mourns…

The events of the past week have really left me shell shocked!

This is a side of human nature most dreaded by everyone was now witnessed by millions Mumbaikars from point blank range. So how do we analyze such actions? We are not a United States…an island…a super power…a global player with the capability and technology to send in troops to another country like Iraq or Afghanistan in the name of democracy! So I ask why US? Why should a country which the most of the western world still claims to bind under the shackles of snake charmers, call center support, and may I add “developing and third world” become a victim to an atrocity of this nature? Why should we have to experience a 9/11 customized just for this beloved city of our- Mumbai? What makes my Mumbai so ripe for such an attack?

Here’s my take:

A country with a booming population, an unstable economy, corrupt government and not to mention the underline blame shifting game between Hindus and Muslims in every possible skirmish: we make the perfect composition of explosives waiting to be ignited! We provide the perfect recipe for any outsider to devour our unity!

And now we want to unite!

Well the ship has sailed…lives have already been lost and how many more will it take for us to understand that we should have united when we were given the greatest gift any nation could have received: freedom.

Uncle Ben’s lines to Peter Parker now echo volumes –
“With great power comes greater responsibility”

Needless to say we have clearly abused our powers and neglected our responsibilities. We are unable to bridge differences is casts and creeds and unable to elect a government to do the same, our country’s infrastructure, our traffic signals which are a joke, our level of pollution and substandard living and level of illiteracy are a clear reflection of the same !

So what do we do NOW!

We unite for the weeks to follow till the memories of those 53 hours of turmoil are pushed back and our daily necessities for a new car or watching SRK’s movie become the center and circumference of our lives! We forget what a city we claim to love so much has been through the moment the Khans unite for an on screen item number in a movie that’s probably funded by the underworld. And then we will blame the media for saturating our brains with sensationalism rather than “real news” when we clearly have control over our remotes and opt into Bollywood RSS feeds.

The reel tragedy…

As the city goes through such a great loss there are directors and script writers racing to one another to pen down ideas on the best way to capture the “heroism” of this atrocity. Bollywood is just waiting to cash in for commercial success on the loss the city has borne!

But will a Filmfare to a Hrithik Roshan or a Sanjay Dutt really compensate for the son, the soldier, the firefighter, the Mumbaikar this city has lost?

Wake Up Mumbai!